The words flew out of my mouth before I could stop them.  They caused anger and hurt.   I also felt anger and hurt from the words said to me.

ME:  “What happened, God?  How did things get so ugly?”  ”

GOD:  “Because of you.”

That was hard to hear, but it was true.  My words provoked the situation.  My behavior violated many of the Bible’s teachings.  I was irritable, impatient, rude and seeking my own way.  Violations of the “love” verses in 1 Corinthians, chapter 13.

My words did not build up.  They tore down.  Violation of Ephesians 4:29, a verse I often share with students to encourage them to speak kindly to others.  If only I’d heeded my own advice.

Proverbs says that gentle words turn away wrath.  I failed that one, too, and many others.

Most importantly, I had failed to behave as the Bible teaches us.  If I had a problem, I should have first gone to God in prayer, trusting Him to lead in the situation, and approaching the other person only if God led me to do so; and then only after more prayer allowing God to work in both of our hearts.  Otherwise, I should have allowed God to work in this situation instead of taking matters into my own hands.  Oh, I messed up so badly!

I felt deep sense of shame and guilt. What could I do to make things right?

I humbly confessed my sins to God, apologized to the one I offended (taking ownership for my wrongdoing), and then prayerfully reflected on all of this.  Through prayer, I was reminded of Easter and the Savior who died on a cross as the perfect sacrifice for all human sin.  I was already forgiven by the Lord!

Gratitude and relief filled my heart. I was so thankful for Jesus, and humbly realized my need for our Risen Savior.

This Easter, please join me in celebrating 50 shades of Grace, as we celebrate the life, death and resurrection of Jesus, the Christ, whose love takes away our sins, and offers us the hope of life everlasting.  Amen.