Dear friends,

I hoped to have something inspirational to share, but my thoughts are all about Tara who is now hospitalized, preparing for our Women’s Retreat being held this weekend, getting ready for my step-mother to arrive from Indiana tomorrow, and preparing for our Bible study tomorrow. 

The most prevalent of those thoughts are for Tara.  Things are getting very scary for her. She was hospitalized on Sunday with pneumonia, adding stress to lungs that already had cancer.  Today we were informed that fluid was forming around her lungs.  At 8:00 a.m. she went into surgery to drain the fluid.  A biopsy of the fluid will tell if the fluid is from the pneumonia or spreading of the cancer.  I think I’m correct in stating that she was placed on a ventilator, too.  She is in such a serious condition that she is not allowed visitors, flowers, or any kind of stimulation because her body is so stressed and needs to rest. 

Because fresh thoughts and words escape me at this time, I’ll share what I sent to our Circle in response to Tara’s situation:

It’s hard to know that someone we care about is struggling, and harder still to face the reality that someone as beautiful and full of love and life as Tara is, who has an incredible husband, precious kids and a wonderful life, is fighting for her life.  Why Tara?  Why cancer?  Why isn’t she being healed?  How can God allow things like this to happen?  Why do these things have to happen? 

We don’t have the answers to those questions.  Maybe they’re not for us to know.  What we do know is that God does work through all things for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28).  Tara has been witnessing incredible strength in faith, inspiring each of us.  Through our care and concern we’ve bound together as a community of love and support – many of us spending time in prayer that we might not have spent otherwise.  And through all of this Tara’s family is experiencing the love of Christ through each person who has helped and supported them in any way.  And I’m sure Mark is seeing God’s hand of grace in ways he never has before. 

We also know that God is our loving Father and longs to hold each of us.  Just as the song Held by Nicole Nordaman (sp?) sings about, we can be sure that Tara is being held and that God is keeping a firm hold on her family, too.  We also know that God hears and answers our prayers.  Although His answers are sometimes different than those we ask for, we can be sure that He is there and that He rules with love and grace.

“Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God; trust also in me.”    – The words of Christ in John 14:1

Blessings to all,